Stones (and all their implications)

       I feel like I have just begun to live and the energy that it brings is transforming. Like water over the stones, softening them with each stroke, moulding them into precious beauties. That is what my past has done.  Everything that has ever happened to me has made me into the woman I am today and I am pretty psyched about who I see.  There are still somethings that need to be smoothed out, but with time, it will come.
       I am unable to recall a time when I have been so happy and confident. So determined and strong. I want to throw my middle finger up to all of those who were naysayers in my life. The ones holding strong to doubt and depression. I WILL ALWAYS PROVE YOU WRONG!
       Also, I'd like to say "Thanks" to those who have forced me to grow by their utter lack of humanity and/or conscious. You're great! Without the extreem amount of betrayal and heart-crushing cruelty I never would have had the balls to be the amazing woman I am. You will always regret your mistake.... but I will always be thankful.
        So when there comes a time when your head is filled with hate and mistrust towards your past.... think of them clearly and send a bit of light and love instead. Admit it, part of the reason you're still upset is because they never gave their piece of your heart back.
       What you send out comes back to you. So,make your thoughts happy and light instead of dark and annihilating. Let me know if you feel a change. Have a wonderful day..... sending loves and kisses!

BLESSED BE! 

     

paintings.....

acrylic paints and India ink on canvas

acrylic on wood

India ink on canvas

Summer Solstice

Attempting to catch little fishies...... which apparently was terrifying,
 based on the screams.

Sierra, Harmony and Makayla

Teenagers tormenting each other- Lovingly.

and.... Me, aka Mom.

Summer Solstice 2012

at Wilson Lake

with

My Beautiful Ladies

Soothing the Soul

There is truly nothing that can compare to the sound and feelings derived from live music.  It has a way of altering moods in both positive and negative ways.  The vibrations through your entire soul can snap your mind out of the funk you have been living in, giving you that feeling of "living" again.  Being reborn from the passions and talents of others is a gift that everyone has the ability to capture.... all it takes is your time and a ticket. 


(photos are of Nickelback live at The Idaho Center Arena 6-13-12)

Port in the Storm

     How do you handle the storm of emotions that sometimes sweep in like a tsunami who's strength is enough to be life altering?  If it was one emotion, easily managed and understood it would me so much simpler. Life though is not simple.  But the cacophony of  feelings is at once magical and terrifying. How can one heart hold things like love, longing, spite, bitterness, contempt, desire, lust, fascination, wonder and thank fullness without simply causing it to implode?
     I have decide that I am going to continue to leave all of the negative ones by the wayside and follow with abandon the ones that make me feel, feel good, feel alive! I am excited by the light that shines in my eyes again and the tripping of my heart in finally a calming way. I have found that gifts can come from the most unexpected places. The most unexpected times from the most unexpected people.
    I am thankful for the gift of light a friend has given me through my time of darkness. The fact that all that happiness came from someone I had the (wrong) impression had thought me "Satan's mistress" at one time makes me have faith that good things can come from anywhere. And I should be open to it at all times because you never know who will matter to you in the future. And who from your past end up meaning nothing at all?  Treasure things while you have them..... when its time to let go, let go softly... take a deep breath and step forward.  You never know who will be waiting with open arms and open heart to envelope you.

Be thankful for the blessings in your life. No matter where they come from.